“Have faith in your dreams and someday, your rainbow will come smiling through. No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true.”-Cinderella
I know that I am a blogger. I am a writer. Words, in theory, are my specialty. God gave me the gift of translation in a sense: I take experiences and feelings and make them relatable by “saying what nobody else could”. However, pregnancy and childbirth…motherhood and miracles…I just don’t quite have the words for yet.
I wanted to write you all a post outlining the magic of this season of life. I wanted to tell you the joy I experienced in childbirth. I wanted to convey the overwhelming truth that even out of devastating loss, there is so much hope in Jesus. But, to be very honest with you, I am just too tired to put into words everything I need to say; everything on my heart. So instead, I am going to share with you several photos-in order-that outline the journey we have been on since our miscarriage in 2016. I think it’s important to share our journey in this way, even if I blog in more detail about my birth experience, etc in the future. Why, you ask? I am hoping the old saying stands true “Pictures speak a thousand words”. As a new mama of twins running on very little sleep, I just don’t have the coherency to put together a thousand words…and I don’t think a thousand words would even be enough.
We are overwhelmed. We are exhausted. We have been on a constant emotional rollercoaster since the babies have been born. However, we are so, so very joyful to have the opportunity to be parents.
Please forgive me for not sharing details of the journey, day by day. I hope to eventually share this chapter of my story with all of you in detail, but again, right now I am just too tired. So instead, I will update as I can. Please know that I am soaking up every single exhausting second of this part of my story.
Also, please forgive me in general right now. I still haven’t sent out all of my thank you notes from showers, mailed gifts, etc. I have every card, gift and gesture logged and I am handwriting each and every note. The last few months of my pregnancy and the first few months of parenthood have taken every ounce of energy I can muster; I promise to send them as soon as possible. I also haven’t gotten gifts out to others, RSVPs mailed, etc. I am working on those in between feeding, changing, burping, loving, etc. There simply just isn’t enough of me to go around right now. I appreciate all of the love, support and prayers during this time.
With an overflowing sense of joy-