I started packing tonight. Technically, I should have way sooner, but I haven’t really felt like it. Tonight I did. I don’t know if that means anything (intuition) but I just felt like it was time. Nothing is actually in a bag, but there is a neatly stacked “pile” in my bedroom consisting mainly of fuzzy socks. It made me…
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This has been an exhausting week. On Tuesday we met with the surgeon for the first time. Jon was allowed to accompany me to the appointment which helped tremendously. There was nothing “new” presented in our meeting with her. She gave a very in-depth discussion of what the percreta was and why they perform certain processes and procedures to treat…
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“How are you?” The standard formal greeting feels like a weighted question these days. If I answered honestly, I would say: I’m restless. Sometimes I’m anxious-to the point I kind of start to have a panic attack, but usually talk myself down before it hits. My mind races constantly. I’m tired. And underneath every emotion is a hint of sadness,…
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“Can I give you a hug?” The question, coming from my masked OB/GYN caused hot tears to well up in my eyes and run down my cheeks. Her hug was a true embrace-not just a halfway “it’s gonna be okay” sentiment. It was genuine. And human. And made me feel not only validated, but valued as her patient and a…
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I like statistics. I tend to rely on them, especially when dealing with life altering or life threatening events. Something about the thought of a statistic is comforting. Concrete even. I believe in science, methodical approaches, mathematics-all of the logical things, and I believe they were given by God as a gift to make the best decisions possible on how…
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