It’s 10:30 PM on a Saturday night. I’m sitting in my chair at the hospital-bored, lonely, exhausted. All of the things. But content too. I don’t mind being alone in general. Despite popular belief, I’m an introvert. But I miss my people. I miss my day-to-day. And I miss my independence. I also miss sunshine. I know-from watching the news…
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Hey friends, I will be admitted to the hospital on Wednesday at 9 am. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t struggling this week. I’m anxious. I’ve cramped off and on for the past few days. I’m starting to get uncomfortable. I’m very tired, very easily. And my mind has raced constantly. I’ve stayed in contact with my…
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I started packing tonight. Technically, I should have way sooner, but I haven’t really felt like it. Tonight I did. I don’t know if that means anything (intuition) but I just felt like it was time. Nothing is actually in a bag, but there is a neatly stacked “pile” in my bedroom consisting mainly of fuzzy socks. It made me…
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This has been an exhausting week. On Tuesday we met with the surgeon for the first time. Jon was allowed to accompany me to the appointment which helped tremendously. There was nothing “new” presented in our meeting with her. She gave a very in-depth discussion of what the percreta was and why they perform certain processes and procedures to treat…
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“How are you?” The standard formal greeting feels like a weighted question these days. If I answered honestly, I would say: I’m restless. Sometimes I’m anxious-to the point I kind of start to have a panic attack, but usually talk myself down before it hits. My mind races constantly. I’m tired. And underneath every emotion is a hint of sadness,…
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